Do I Only Have Eyes for You?

IMG_6091Holding hands, my daughter and her fiancé stood on the church altar, gazing into each other’s eyes. Their radiant smiles and misty eyes were contagious. As the mother of the bride, I counted the poinsettias that alternated with the tea lights to keep from sobbing with joy.

Clinging to my husband’s hand, I listened as they exchanged wedding vows and made a covenant before God “to have and to hold from this day forth, in sickness and in health…”

I watched as they each took a candle, the same ones the groom’s mother and I had lit earlier, and allowed the two flames to become one on their own candle to signify the unity of their lives.

When the pastor pronounced them “husband and wife” not only were they legally married, they entered into a new relationship that redefined them.

Suddenly, I also had new relationships, a new identity. The groom was now my son-in-law which made me a~~mother-in-love! And two separate genealogies were grafted into one family tree.

Since the wedding, my daughter legally, eagerly, changed her last name to be the same as her Beloved. As the two of them resolve to become one, and identify with each other’s needs, there has been a merging of bank accounts, power of attorney, and dreams. There’s no demand for entitlement, no fear, only love as they travel the same path, together, into tomorrow.

That love and commitment exists between my husband of 33 years and me. Can I say the same for my relationship with God?

Andrew Murray wrote, “The three Persons in the Godhead are the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit—each one is different from the others. God desires to reveal Himself as a person…and we are called to enter into fellowship with Him.

 God greatly desires this relationship with us, but sin has come between us and our God. Even in Christians who know God, there is often great ignorance and even indifference to this personal relationship of love to God.

People believe that at conversion their sins are forgiven, that God accepts them so that they may go to heaven. They do not realize that, even as a father and his child on earth enjoy being together, so they must have this intimate fellowship with God each day.”    

No demands, no fear.

Enjoying His presence, and resting on His deep, tender love to us even in this moment.

Here Comes the Bride

BoquetBreathtaking! That’s the word that popped into my head when my daughter walked out of the dressing room wearing her bridal gown.

Standing tall, face aglow, she caressed the ivory gown which minutes earlier had hung limp, lifeless on a plastic manikin. As my daughter studied her image in the mirror, her countenance was transformed like Cinderella rising from the ashes. The bridal gown, an organza symbol of true love found, and girlhood dreams come true.

Looking for my approval, my daughter noticed the “mother of the bride’s” dry tissue. But I was too stunned for tears. Love, pride, and flashbacks to a new-born daughter wrapped in a pink blanket, and later, at the age of six, wearing a princess costume, squeezed my heart just like the child who once squeezed my fingers with her tiny hand.

And while I sat there silent, grinning, hoping my daughter read in my eyes what words could not convey, I thought of the Bride of Christ and how splendid His church will look when Jesus, the Bridegroom, returns for us some day.

Which led me to wonder: Am I longing for Jesus to return like my daughter longs for her groom to return to California for the wedding?

Do I search God’s Word each day, the way she savors the groom’s hand-written letters?

Am I faithful, keeping myself pure for the One who loves me with an everlasting love? Or do I run after other gods I think will satisfy my heart?

Am I ready for Christ’s return, busy about my Heavenly Father’s business? Or do I only pursue my earthly agenda?

In Revelations 19: 6-9 we read about Christ’s return:

Then I heard what sounded like a great multitude, like the roar of rushing waters and like loud peals of thunder, shouting: “Hallelujah! For our Lord God Almighty reigns. Let us rejoice and be glad and give him glory! For the wedding of the Lamb has come, and his bride has made herself ready. Fine linen, bright and clean, was given her to wear.” Then the angel said to me, “Write: ‘Blessed are those who are invited to the wedding supper of the Lamb!’”

Preparing for my daughter’s wedding has been all-consuming, and often robs me of quiet time when I could be still and enjoy the intimacy of knowing God.

And yet, God has used this wedding to remind me that one glorious day, the bride of Christ…..we fellow saints ….will rejoice at the wedding feast of the Lamb.

“I will take delight in you,” He says to us, “as a bridegroom rejoices over his bride, so I will rejoice over you,” (Isaiah   62:5)

So that we might say, “I am my beloved’s, and His desire is for me.” (Song of Solomon 7:10)