Empty nest and letting go was the subject of my previous post. Granted my home is quieter, but the house doesn’t feel as empty as my soul.
It’s like God moved away and didn’t leave a forwarding address. And I can’t muster the energy to seek Him.
Tell me you’ve been there too because admitting I’m spiritually lukewarm and lethargic isn’t a piece of cake.
After all, I write about seeing the Lord in my everyday circumstances, and wanting more of Him. So how can I write when I’m unable to experience the reality of His presence?
More important, how can I live well and be in God’s will without seeking His presence?
I know that nothing can separate me from the love of God.
I’m not depressed. I’m not bored. If anything, I’ve allowed busyness and frivolity to fill the void of God’s absence.
And yet, what did I expect would happen? Who moved away from whom?
Earlier this year, I had a forever friend who gave me the silent treatment. She didn’t return my phone texts. She was unavailable to meet with me. I finally confronted her, “What have I done to make you pull away?”
Her response, “I’m hurt. I don’t want to be somebody you meet on occasion before you’re off to the next person or thing. When did I become an obligation instead of someone you want to be with?”
Her words struck a chord. For I was guilty of indifference; taking our friendship for granted.
Perhaps I’m guilty again.
- Have I taken my relationship with the Lord for granted? Or do I remember I’m not my own. I was bought with a price, Christ’s precious blood. (1 Corinthians 6:20).
- Is my worship of God, Almighty a morning discipline or my heart’s desire?
- Have I’ve neglected to meet with the Lord because I’m pursuing other things: the lust of the flesh, the lust of the eyes, and the pride of life? (1 John 2:16)
I only know I can’t go for very long before I miss the Lord.
He alone can restore to me the joy of His salvation (Psalm 51:12).
For in His presence is fullness of joy (Psalm 16:11).
I know because I have been there. I’ve tasted and seen the Lord is good. (Psalm 34:8)
And I’m selfish enough to want to go there again.